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Someone made an offer on our house today and I think we're almost 99% certain that the house is going to be sold. Earlier on when people came to view the house, I was indifferent but now when it seems like its really happening I cant bear the thought of shifting out when Ive spend the last 12/13 years in here. Im going to miss it so much and Shermain will too cus she loves my house now. The only thing I can hope for now is that we shift to somewhere nearer to her place! East side please!!

Mag and Julynn slept over at my place on Wednesday these two are real pigs they slept for too long I even finished my breakfast and watched a few episodes of Hk drama and they still weren't awake!! When they finally woke we spent the whole afternoon watching Hk drama till we finished the entire show!! Mag finally gave it a chance and seeee it isnt that bad afterall right?


The next day, headed to Play with Shermain, Mag, Minpei, Julynn, Janice and Diane ! We had a fun time except the part whereby Minpei lost her bag :(

One more week of holidays before school starts. Totally dreading it even with a 3 day week because it means homework and deadlines and a freaking packed Tuesday time-table. MUST. ENJOY. LAST. WEEK. OF. HOLIDAYS.

3 Jan 2011

My girl only attended 3 hours of school today and skipped her later class to come over to my house instead. I know it is a bad habit and I dont want her to start it, especially not on her 1st day of school but I just can't resist that adorable little voice that started whining like a baby from 7am this morning. "Omg I don't wanna go to school, I wanna cry now, can I just go over to your house and sleep now?" HOW TO RESIST YOU TELL ME? Baby, please have a New Year resolution of trying not to skip school so much okay? My resolution is to spend less on cab fares and other unnecessary things. Today's good, I only spent about 2$ on snacks :D

Last Tuesday was Steph's birthday and she booked a room at MBS. Was there with Amelia and Naomi! I received 2 Chirstmas gifts without giving out any at all. Very guilty indeed. And I am very proud of myself because I did not succumb to temptation to cab there even tho' I was very lost.

Its the start of a new year whereby I wish for 3 things to be constant - You and you and you. Resolutions always fail but wishes give you hope. This year, I wish for countless gifts, silently because I want them to come true.

1st Jan 2011
My girl finally got back from Bangkok after 5 seemingly short to everyone else but extremely long days for me. I missed her and I'm glad she's back :) Definitely the greatest and best part of my 2010 and with all my heart I pray, for the years to come as well.  

Even tho' Christmas isnt going be spent with you because we've got our own plans, I know that every minute of my Christmas will be spent with random thoughts of you. Merry Christmas Sweetheart. Just like this time last year, you know my heart beats for you. No one knows whats going to happen in the future but with hope, let me just say that I want more than a couple more Christmas spent knowing that you're my one and only and vice versa. 

Sometimes its really difficult t get people t understand how you're feeling or why you're doing the things that you do. Friendships are really fragile when it comes t some, but others, its just unbreakable. What does it say or prove when a friendship that Ive put so much effort into comes around and slaps me in the face, making me doubt myself and the person that Ive become? Am I doing it wrong or are the others simply cutting me some slack by not saying anything when Im really such a lousy friend? 

A mask of words a cover of emotions a fear of rejection a loss of affection which do you really fear cus at the end of the day it just boils down t who really cares more indifference is the winner of it all

But Ive gotta be thankful for people like my Babyfat and Baoz and B cus sometimes simply seeing their faces and knowing that they still care through it all is enough

I understand, but that dont mean it didnt hurt.

I don't get it. How come some people just don't use their brains t fucking think before they shoot their mouth off?

Been a while since my last update and many things have happened since. Mostly good, but obviously the downs always gotta butt in.

Results were released on Fri, it got kinda crazy. First time seeing my babes so worried and afraid as was myself cus I knew how it would most probably be. And as expected it was crap. Really, Idk how I survived the disappointment but luckily parents were awesome and so were all my darlings. :) & Im extremely happy for Baby & Dannyboi cus they totally deserved their awesome results sorry I didnt really show it that day cus I was in such'a bad shape.

The good thing's that Ive been spending time w people that I love. :)

Stuff that I remember,
Going t work only t realise I wasnt working that day major zz
Muddy's place for Steamboat
Met up w Monique :)
Saw Bbgf and Cherlyn :) :)
Unhappiness
Getting angry at someone who was always there for me (Im really sorry)
Lunching with Baoz, Baby & Muddy over at Kallang Macs
Baby, Muddy, Jan coming over for Dinner
Baoz's place t chill
Sleepover
Work at 930am the next day
(Swear I really didnt wanna go)
Sakae buffet w that Fatbaby of mine
Loving Bb's new hair though she complains about it big time
Thinking she's beyond perfect
Work
Party
Hurting Malan's lips Im so so so sorry
Tweety's birthday
Skipped work
Hongkong cafe
Baoz Dannyboi Bb came over
Went over t Dannyboi's dinner w him, Bb, tweety
Haircut
Work
Sleepover
Hongkong cafe
Superdog
Dinner w Baby Baoz Muddy Karen Jiamin
Court at Baby's place w Bb Dannyboi plus Baby
Bb came over
Ball w Baoz Bb Tweety
Collecting results
Smelly's place
Sakura buffet
Indulge lunch awesomeeeee
Sushi
Ben & Jerrys
Dear John
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Driving
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Thats about the whole past two weeks.

There're many things that have been running through my head for the past few days and I really just gotta get it out.

At this point in time everything's probably gonna change. We all gotta make decisions, tough ones maybe even the most important one thus far. People gonna drift, friendships gonna fade and stuff like that. Thats why I wanna keep check of everything Ive done. How Ive spent my time w the people that matter alot t me.

Sam & Amerie, Marcella, Cheryl, Cherlyn. Ive missed you guys. A whole lot. The Bs been so tight before, I spent my entire June break w you guys. Things have changed but I'll never forget all the times we had. The one great thing that I'll always remember about the Bs, you guys give the best hugs, the warmest, tightest, most sincere hugs.

Dannyboi Ive never really told you this but I really wanna thank you. For everything that you've done for me the past two years. We've spent a huge amount of time together and you know me best. With a single facial expression you can just tell what Im feeling. It shows alot, shows that you care. I know Ive been messed up and not exactly the best friend I could or should have been and Im sorry. For getting angry at you, for being unreasonable and losing my temper at you.

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Shall go change before dinner w parents.
Probably gonna be seeing my favourite as well. Things are quite a mess right now I wish I knew how t fix this.

Crashed Dannyboi's crib w Bb & her BabyTweety :)
I love my babyboi he's my favourite. :D

To someone who means alot

I dont know whats happening but the distance between us scares me. Dont fade away please, I miss you. I realised I dont know who you are anymore, I know I havent been putting in much effort Im sorry. Fall back into my life please, I need you t be exactly where you always have been. I know Ive let you down before and probably again Im so sorry. Know that you still mean alot t me I promise I wont make the same mistake of taking this friendship for granted again.

I'm not gonna care anymore.

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